29.4.07
I just realised I have been stuck on my 279th post for the past 22 or so days. And anyway, since it's a sunday and the week has been pretty much interesting, or rather more different from other weeks, I shall do a recap on some of the points I have made during the week.

I know the world is unfair and maybe it's because I've been part of the side of people that have been receiving our fair share of the world's fairness, I am not used to this sudden realisation of unfairness at all. I have read in many articles or stories of how perseverance is the key to everything. Work hard, give in your best and no matter how painful the process is, you will reach where you want to be one day. This being the message conveyed, I applied it into the various aspects of my life, and I realised that being a fervent supporter of this rule of perseverance does not always get you to the place that you want to be. You can put in 200% of effort for something and get nothing in the end, simply because there is such a thing in the world as biasness. And when you realise that, do you carry on and continue to blindly persevere, because people have told you that perseverance is everything? Maybe sometimes, it's really just better to accept that some things will never go the way you want them to be. It's not about giving up and being a so called quiter, because accepting is not an easy process as well and will also need some form of perseverance to achieve.

And this links to the point about freedom of choice. Sometimes, I wish I could go up to some people and give them the tight slap on their faces (don't take it literally) that they deserve, and walk away without once feeling guilty. Maybe that's why there are many times where things end up working against me. I feel guilty after being mean to the people who really deserve it. And I don't know why I always end up giving in to people just because they are better at expressing their anger. Let's face it, we all have our own problems that we keep inside. Do we really need to let our choices be decided by the ones who are simply not as good as hiding their problems? I really hope I do not become just like any other person who blindly follows what si supposed to be "right". I do not want to end up being governed by my fear of upsetting others.
Sunday, April 29, 2007

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